Art of Letting Go - MIkaila
Put away the pictures.
Put away the memories.
I put over and over
Through my tears
I’ve held them till I’m blind
They kept my hope alive
As if somehow that I’d keep you here
Once you believed in a love forever more?
How do you leave it in a drawer?
Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that’s holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I’m just learning,
Learning the art of letting go.
Try to say it’s over
Say the word goodbye.
But each time it catches in my throat
Your still here in me
And I can’t set you free
So I hold on to what I wanted most
Maybe someday we’ll be friend’s forever more
Wish I could open up that door
Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that’s holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I’m just learning,
Learning the art of letting go
Watching us fade
What can I do?
But try to make it through
the pain of one more day
Without you
Where do I start, to live my life alone?
I guess I’m learning, only learning,
Learning the art of letting go.
if you think things over.. this song may only be intended for lovers moving separate ways.. living separate lives after a happy and colorful relationship.. but for me.. its not just that.. this song goes to "letting go" of the "important" things, habits, especially persons who made our lives colorful and full of adventure..
i experienced letting go to my valued friends before and even now.. when i was in grade school i can still remember the days when im giggling with my grade school gurl friends.. though im not that "pa-gurl" that time.. i still experienced the best of grade school with them.. i can even remember us swearing to a tree at school that we will never forget each other and the friendship shall last forever.. weve been to separate ways having me transferring to a different school away from them.. kinda sad really but its both the end and the beginning of a new life for me.. though i have to say i never did forgotten my grade school friends (whom i am trying my very best to get in touch with these days..)
along came high school.. im kinda unusual to my classmates since i came from a different school in grade school.. but just like the "first day funk" song by PNE.. im full of confidence that i can overcome any possible hurdles of high school life, which i looked forward as the most exciting part of being a teenager, and ive proven that to be absolutely correct.. i made new friends.. new company.. but as always.. graduation will always come and that means "letting go" of these "companions" whom i shared the best of high school life.. though i will also have to say i never forgot.. were also keeping in touch in our ways even thru our hectic scheds..
then college.. the most "challenging" part of studying.. challenge in a sense that more responsibilities.. more opportunities for growth.. as again.. i made new friends.. some of which from other courses as well.. i shared all the "puyatan blues" and "stomach pain" with my classmates.. thru all the case studies.. projects.. documentations and dissertations.. we surpassed them all with flying colors.. i know i have to say this again.. there came the time to "let go" again.. very dramatic since my college friends were almost like my siblings.. their families are my extended families.. their parents my 2nd parents.. but i have to be strong.. i have to face the challenge of the real world outside my alma mater..
and so i did.. i got a job.. the kind of job which im capable and i will have to say easier for me.. in a sense that i have all the necessary backgrounds and skills needed for the job.. i hate to say this but even at the workplace.. i also experienced "letting go".. switching from one program to another is inevitable.. and for every switch means "letting go" of your TLs, team mates, friends.. the most memorable i would have to say was when i switch from AOL to Vonage.. maybe because i stayed longer in AOL and was accommodated by a "real family".. needless to say and i know not all of my workmates know this.. i really cried.. shattered tears on that very day.. but that was deep inside.. i never want them to know and see that im hurting.. i want them to see that im moving on with a smile on my face and a wave that means "see you later dude!.." but im ok now.. im still seeing my AOL friends so no need to be agonized anymore.. as for my Vonage family.. i would have to say im really blessed.. not just to be part of this company but to be accomodated by the best and wonderful people.. they’re part of my inspiration to go to work everyday..
now.. i will need to say "best wishes" to another "letting go" segment of my life.. my girlfriend Ate Larra is getting married soon.. leaving us her girlfriends behind.. for there’s no assurance of her coming back to work after her leave.. hope i can cope up with this.. not again.. :’(
